From Bean town to California to an unexpected North Carolina. We gave birth to this Blog after our miscarriage in July 2008 & it continues with the birth of Liliana in July of 2009. We are so truly blessed.
So here we are living in the South & yet we've experienced three snow storms in the last 2 yrs. This one has to be the best one yet, cause we get to share it with our little mamma. I drove home this am from work, not too bad but it did take me twice as long. The roads weren't plowed yet, are there plow trucks here, I didn't see but one...? It wasn't so much the snow but the freezing rain that was coming down this morning that made it slick. So after getting some zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzs this morning we took Liliana outside to partake in some of the white stuff. Was she ambivalent, probably...did we enjoy it---YES!
Weight: 17 lbs 5 oz (80%) Height: 27.5 inches (97%) Head Cir: 42.5" (60%
So here we are just a little past 6 months & little baby girl is:
*Eating a lot, still plenty of breast milk & newly begun oatmeal w/ carrots, avocado & bananas...liking it all so far. *Sitting on her own *Napping twice a day *Playful *Realizing there are strangers, did so today at the Pediatricians' office, with a pout of the lip & a big ole cry when the doctor tried to examine her
I honestly don't know where the last 1/2 a year went some days it feels like I was just pregnant & other days well, other days feel soooo long. In the moment I think it feels long cause sometimes when she's sick or we're just not jiving its difficult to know what she wants....& well now baby calls.....Ok, little mamma, mamma is coming...
Lately I don't feel like I am ALL I can be. I've been struggling with who God is calling me to be. Eli & I have had many conversations about this already, and I feel my heart strings are being pulled in so many directions. My heart aches to have the answers now, I pray for guidance, but lately have felt alone. I am & can be really good at isolating myself & retreating inside. I am first and foremost a wife & mother, but I also work outside of the house and for all these things right now, at the end of the day, I feel lacking.
What is the best way to get my full? *Share what I am going through, never assume your closest people know what you're feeling *Prayer *Be faithful in His Plan, which is something I'm truly having a difficult time with right now.
The point of this post, even though I know it rambles, is to just get a bit of my thoughts out. I tend to labor over them in my head too much, this blog is a helpful way for me to begin processing. :)
So we're 5 days into this New Year & I didn't anticipate how 2010 started. Liliana got sick a week ago, a cold. She's been a good sport; still eating plenty, napping, playful & sweet. She's not so happy when we come at her with the blue sucker to clean her snots out, but its gotta be done. Momma, on the other hand, has been miserable & not such a good sport. Friday I was achy, had a runny nose, sneezing lots & well just plain yucky~Happy New Year~ Over the course of the last 5 days, I've spiked a temperature, but nothing Ibuprofen couldn't defeat & now, well now, I'm experiencing the most head pressure one head should ever have to tolerate. Today I had enough, I read up on what I could & couldn't take to help beat this thing. Dr Sears helped me sort things out, plus a call to my OB & the Pediatricians' office. I wanted to make sure whatever I took wouldn't effect Liliana via my milk. Sudafed was the answer. So we'll see....
Plus did I mention Eli also got sick, but has been an amazing husband taking care of us all. My lowest point these last few days is when I was doing a night feeding, I got dizzy, realized I had to put her back into the crib so I could get my head back. Lili was not happy. While she was crying, I sat on the floor just wishing I was better.